Well my first Peds clinical got botched today which kind of sucks! Our badges weren't completely ready, meaning 4 out of 10 in my group didn't have one, and weren't going to be ready until afternoon and we aren't allowed to be on the floor without badges due to hospital policy so our clinical instructor sent us home because everyone couldn't be there. So I got up at 0515 for nothing, bleh. 

School officially started on August 27! 

We did 3 days of orientation, a tour of Head Start, and a computer class for one of the local hospitals. Now it's Labor Day and I had the day off to rest and recuperate. I went to a BBQ today hosted by my uncle's church at a local park which was a nice little event. 

I didn't get much sleep last week. I have to get back into the groove of school and work and the correct sleep schedule. I am lucky that to keep up with my bills (cell, car, rent, insurance) I only have to work 2 days a week and for that I am thankful. I even have money from my school refund for back up payments should I need it. I am very blessed and I know it.

I have got my personal debt down significantly since I moved here in January because of my job. Just paid off my personal credit card, no more interest! Will finish paying off Best Buy next month. And then I have to repay my Mom for help she gave me when I needed it the last two school semesters. 

I'm still not sold on this semester because it's OB and Peds but I have to keep the faith my instructors and classmates will be able to help me weather it. I've been using the first week to get organized. I bought a planner specific to school because I kept not wanting to write/mess up the Moleskine I bought at the beginning of the year. This is just a $5 nothing special so I won't mind if it gets banged up or wet while in my backpack. 

I also like to take the course schedule we get as part of syllabi and I made a packet with just those so I always have a reference for when things are due and what we're working on each week. I then transfer this to my iCal which pushes to my iPhone which currently looks like it threw up everywhere! I fill out my planner with this important information. 

My first Peds hospital clinical (of which I have 7! Some of the other groups only have 5) is this Wednesday. I'm freaking a little, but I'll make it somehow!

I do have something to look forward to at the end of this semester (which will help me get through it), a trip to Las Vegas. I've wanted to return after I turned 21 and now I finally get to do it. I'm going with my best friend and her husband since my bestie is turning 30 next year!

I'll try to keep this better updated this semester, but I make no promises.

Until next time...

So I finished my first upper division nursing school semester for my BSN about two months ago which included the classes: Nursing Pharmacotherapeutics, Psychosocial Nursing Concepts, Acute & Chronic Illness, and Introduction to Community-Based Nursing. 1 semester down and 3 to go. Overall the semester went pretty smoothly considering I moved 450 miles from home to live with my Mom's brother and sister and I got my first job as an LPN doing part-time night shifts. 


This next semester that starts in about a month and a half is going to feature: Nursing Care of Childbearing Family, Nursing Care of Children and Families, and finally Research in Health Care. Basically this is mom/baby semester which I already know is not an area that I'm interested in general due to previous school experience and just my overall feelings. I also am not big on writing papers which is exactly what I fear my research class will be full of. Thankfully I just have to look at it from the perspective of being one semester out of four that I might not love but that I will make it through.


I must say I really enjoyed the professors I had last semester and I am a bit sad that they stay teaching their same classes but we as students move on to new professors. It leaves me a bit flustered because I worry about what is to come. Although I should mention that I haven't heard anything bad about any of the professors on this campus thankfully. 


I'm also really thankful for my LPN job which is at a nursing home and is slowly teaching me new things. I'm thankful nursing home life is more laid back and is allowing me to get my feet wet in nursing for my first job without overwhelming me. Right now I'm having to navigate being a direct supervisor to two CNAs and how we've got one who just doesn't seem to be "getting it" and hasn't been receptive to help from anyone. And I can tell my willingness to help is waning because of her inability to accept help from others. I'm having to remind myself that it's not her feelings I need to worry about but resident safety and health. 


Well I'm feeling tired so I think I'll go lay down and see if I can get a nap in before work tonight :)


Until next time.

So far school has been pretty uneventful mostly related to almost probably 80% of the information I'm getting is the second time around which I don't mind as I want the best knowledge base going into this BSN education possible, which is set to start ramping up next semester.

We only have 3 clinical days this semester with actual patients and the rest of the learning is done in lab which I kind of like and detest at the same time, but one of those days is already finished. And I'm slightly freaking out about my care plan which is kind of silly and ridiculous at the same time. This isn't my first care plan in general, but it is differently styled than what I'm used to that's for sure. It's also for a teacher whose expectations I'm not quite sure about. But this week that is my major 'to do' and I'm even headed back to the hospital today to get more information and mind meld with my unit partner for that day and also to help her along since I possess extra information and I kind of feel it's one of my duties to impart knowledge.

My social life is as usual, totally fucked haha. Not going to harp or rant on the details but luckily where I'm lacking in some areas I have friends that make up for it in others thankfully.

Until next time, stay classy ;)

(Really on a Ron Burgundy kick with the sayings lately)

This is something I wrote on Google+ for someone else to see but because I'm going to actively try and blog harder here, even if it is only for myself and my sanity, it can be posted here as well.

I think I'm giving up and I'm not pleased with myself. I'm giving up because I spent pretty much my entire last relationship fighting for someone who wasn't fighting for me, and right now I'm the only person trying as you just gave up. And all I'm doing is fighting to give this a chance. Granted this isn't on the same scale but you neglected to even let me tell you this and instead iced me out because you don't believe in you (or another reason you just won't tell me). That's fine, but I'm trying to tell you that I believe in you and I want you in my life, but even with me saying this you have to decide if you want me in your life and right now it doesn't appear you do. You've probably noticed we're no longer Facebook friends because I don't want the glimpse into the life I'm not being allowed into nor do I want to share about mine with someone who isn't interested in it.

I don't want you to think of me fondly and smile from time to time because I actually want you to be around to be smiling directly because of me. Someone needs to laugh at the moments where I'm too clumsy for words or when something brilliant pops out of my mouth that no one was expecting, including me. To watch stupid movies such as Old School together and laugh until we cry, and after we're done to wipe away those tears. To share the moments I'm going to inevitably have as I continue on with school. To be there when I'm finally done and taking that next set of nursing boards and I'm so stressed out of my mind and to try and get me calmed down (you did more than you thought for me even though we weren't physically in the same room).

I really wanted to come down and confront you in person but it's not going to work out with the schedule I'm keeping with school, work, and the financial obligations I've already got myself into. Maybe someday our paths will cross again but for now if you won't answer my texts there's nothing more for me to say other than this: I wish you well in whatever you continue to do in life. I won't say goodbye because that's packed with too much finality for me, so until another time...

I'm not going to go into any detail regarding the whole situation since I really, really, really just needed to get this out there.

Saw this first over on: Sweet November and figured I'd give it a whack.

A. Age: 22

B. Bed size: Queen

C. Chore you hate: Mowing the lawn

D. Dogs: 4: 1 Jack Russell (Willy), 2 Chihuahuas (Grizz and Cooper), and 1 Pomeranian (Riley)

E. Essential start to your day: A shower usually

F. Favorite color: Blue

G. Gold or silver: Silver

H. Height: 5'5"

I. Instruments you play: None

J. Job title: Nursing student

K. Kids: None

L. Live: Montana

M. Maiden name: Fisher

N. Nicknames: Courtz, Cfish

O. Overnight hospital stays: When I was born

P. Pet peeve: Dishonesty mostly, but there are more than enough

Q. Quote: My main one - "Be nice, I could be your nurse someday"

R. Righty or lefty: Righty

S. Siblings: None

T. Time you wake up: Summer hours so 11:30-12:30. Once school starts we're looking at 6:30 a.m. instead

U. University attended: Flathead Valley Community College, University of Montana, and Montana State University

V. Vegetables you dislike: Onions and peppers mostly, but I'm slowly introducing them into my diet

W. What makes you run late: Sleeping late

X. X-rays you’ve had: Dental most recently

Y. Yummy food: Mashed potatoes and Chinese food. I could eat Chinese almost every day

Z. Zoo animal favorite: Giraffes, Hippos, and Penguins

I know I shouldn't be nervous about starting into my BSN degree, I mean according to the state of Montana I am a licensed practical nurse right about now. I mean I have a copy of my license in my room right now. I successfully completed an LPN program, took my NCLEX-PN, and drove the 4 hours home fretting about whether I passed only to be told 3 hours in by my Mom who I had camped out on the MT State Board of Nursing page awaiting the addition of my name. All of this should mean that I shouldn't feel any pressure continuing on in my education as I've gotten a head start on others in regards to medications, medication administration, medication rights, etc...

Granted I'm still behind when it comes to direct patient care. I'm not a CNA and even with my previous education I didn't do too much of it, but as an RN I know I will need to be more proficient. At least I know an area where I need improvement.

I'm not excited to move for a semester back to the city that I hate. I am excited after that semester to move to a city 8 hours away from my parents and move in with my Mom's brother and sister and live there for 2 years until I'm done. My parents and I have an interesting relationship, so it will be nice for the first time to actually be living apart from them.

All in all I think I'm the one who's overanalyzing and letting this get to me.

School starts August 29th. I'm still waiting on the information to tell me what books we need and blah blah blah and maybe that's what's making me nervous.

Say it with me now: 5 semesters left.